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10/06/07:
- Received -> Ice07, Pyo07, Book19, and Gold Choice Card Certificate from mastering Blast
10/07/07:
- Gave -> Pyo07 to aacdeln
- Received -> Spiral15 from Anime Trivia (game)
10/09/07:
- Received -> Silver Choice Card Certificate from Distorted (game)
- Traded -> Ginryu14 and Class29 for Charity07 and Chibi07 with stopping
- Traded -> Gold Choice Card Certificate for Whimsy03
10/10/07:
- Traded -> Chibi07 and Witch11 for Gold Choice Card Certificate with babybahamut
10/13/07:
- Received -> Book17, Book13, Book10 from Card Graveyard
10/14/07:
- Traded -> Gold Choice Card Certificate for Whimsy04
- Traded -> Neophyte04 for Heaven07 and Nymph06 at Card Exchange
- Received -> Pizza20, Nun13, and Bronze Choice Card Certificate from Laundry Basket (game)
- Received -> Thief07 and Major13 from Happy Birthday! (game)
- Received -> Mascot14 from Anime Trivia (game)
- Traded -> Suit17 for Tattoo19 and Ruse06 at Card Exchange
- Received -> Pyo09, Yeshua07, Class01, Sky12, and Saru19 from Card Graveyard
- Received -> Oedipus10 and Blood20 from Freebies
10/15/07:
- Traded -> Charity07 for Class02 with parttime_job
- Traded -> Send01 for Book04 with roxora
- Traded -> Pyo09 and Yeshua07 for Gold Choice Certificate with aacdeln
10/16/07:
- Traded -> Heaven07 for Demon19 with aikodestiny
- Traded -> Class01 and Class02 for Demon01 and Demon10 with stopping
10/17/07:
- Received -> Nobody10 and Faith17 from Sekrit Role Call!
- Traded -> Gold Choice Certificate for Whimsy07 at Card Exchange
- Traded -> Pizza01 and Pizza18 for Ai10 and Camera13 with voxune
- Traded -> Bronze Certificate for Book15 at Card Exchange
- Traded -> 669-06, Medea10, and Faith 17 for Hachi09, Doll06, and Mary06 with bittering
10/18/07:
- Gave -> Mary06 to aacdeln
- Received -> Class17, Enigma15, Charity02, and Hachi02 from aacdeln ♥
10/19/07:
- Traded -> Doll01 and Oepidus10 for Camera07 and theEND16 with stopping
- Received -> Pyo08, Nymph12, and Flirt19 from Leveling
10/20/07:
- Traded -> Tori03 for Sweets14 with capn_kat
10/21/07:
- Received -> Gold Choice Certificate from Pick a Card (game)
- Received -> Parapara01 and Bronze Choice Certificate from Laundry Basket (game)
- Reveiced -> Haze11 and Charity18 from Happy Birthday! (game)
- Traded -> Flirt19 for Mary02 with ignored_tears
- Received -> God14 and Hanyou10 from Guess the Character (game)
- Traded -> Enigma14 and Enigma15 for Demon12 and Book03 with stopping
10/22/07:
- Traded -> Pyo08 and Mary02 for Hachi06 and Sky17 with aacdeln
- Traded -> Theif07 for Ronin19 with babybahamut
- Traded -> Ronin19 for Nyo20 with insanezero
- Received -> Reolve19 and Protect20 from Freebies!
10/23/07:
- Gave -> Nyo20 to aacdeln
10/27/07:
- Received -> Whimsy01 from stopping
- Traded -> Gold Choice Certificate for Whimsy05 at Card Exhange
- Received -> Bunny11 and Silver Choice Certificate from Distorted! (game)
- Received -> Howling05 and Oedipus11 from Guess the Manga (game)
- Traded -> Ai10 for Demon09 with roxora
- Traded -> Haze11 for Onigiri17 with chrysa
- Received -> Aniki10, Strings13, Wild20, Onigiri10, Bunny10, Tiger05, Cow04, Crash16, Space13, Smart14, and Howling03 from News Post ♥
- Traded -> Howling03 and Howling05 for Onigiri02, Onigiri20, Wild02, Bunny17, and Hachi14 with aacdeln
10/28/07:
- Received -> Silver Choice Certificate from Pick a Card (game)
- Traded -> Oedipus11, Strings13, and Aniki10 for Onigiri15, Wild12, and Book02 with stopping
10/29/07:
- Received -> Horse20 and Kohai11 from Happy Birthday! (game)
11/2/07:
- Traded -> Bunny11 for Doll13 with haruhara
11/03/07:
- Traded Ruse06 and Ruse12 for Onigiri18 and Bunny01 with dia_aren_marie
- Received -> Fallen04, Aniki05 and Cat09 from Guess that Anime (game)
- Received -> Common11 and TheEND19 from Distorted (game)
- Traded -> Cow04 and Demon04 for Onigiri09 and Onigiri12 with chrysa
- Traded -> Silver Choice Certificate for Book05 and Mary04 at Card Exchange
- Gave -> Space13 and Resolve19 to haruhara
- Received -> Cat19 and Seleve07 from Guess the Character (game)
- Received -> Major18, Haro06, and Stalk10 from Pick a Card (game)
- Received -> Bronze Choice Certificate, Dice17 and Hohe13 from Laundry Basket (game)
- Received -> Dragon03 from Anime Trivia (game)
- Reveived -> Emperor20 and Magus05 from Happy Birthday! (game)
- Traded -> TheEND19 for Nyo15 with lucathia_rykatu
- Traded -> Aniki05 and Doll13 for Wild13 and Crash07 with stopping
- Traded -> Mary04 and Nyo15 for Parapara09 with aacdeln
11/05/07:
- Gave -> Magus05 to haruhara
- Traded -> Sweets14 for Onigiri03 and Onigiri06 with stopping
- Traded -> Pizza20 for Class16 with warwolves
11/09/07:
- Gave -> Demon12 to elystia
- Traded -> God14 and Ice07 for Parapara05 with fluffyferret
- Received -> Cat03, Crash10, and Smart02 from haruhara
11/10/09:
- Received -> Parapara03 from Distorted! (game)
11/11/09:
- Received -> Reality07, Enkidu07, and Rikka09 from Guess that Anime (game)
- Received -> Shrimp07 and Cabbit19 from Guess the Seiyuu (game)
- Received -> Bones01, Thought06, and Goober11 from Guess the Manga (game)
- Received -> Ronin07, Space11 and Bronze Choice Certificate from Eye Spy! (game)
- Received -> Helix12 and Nii14 from Guess that Character (game)
- Received -> TheEND12 and MPD07 from Happy Birthday! (game)
- Received -> Resolve05, Solar17, Ramen01, Oha13, Dog12, Nii17, Windom05, and Thought01 from Scrambler! (game)
- Received -> Onigiri07 from aacdeln
- Received -> Wild19 and Wild05 from stopping
11/12/07:
- Traded -> Saru19 for Dog18 with chikkeh
- Traded -> Nun13 for Hachi07 with babybahamut
- Received -> Ninja01 and Medea12 from Anime Theme Contest Voting
11/14/07:
- Traded -> Enkidu09, Rikka09, and Helix12 for Dragon14, Cat20, and Crash08 with stopping
- Traded -> Mascot14 for Bunny20 with nailbat
- Traded -> Major13 and Major18 for Cat07, Crash09, Nun16 and Sky15 with aacdeln
- Traded -> TheEND12 and Shrimp07 for Demon20 and Nun04 with lucathia_rykatu
- Traded -> Dog12 and Dragon03 for Hachi01 and Hachi20 with acharne
11/16/07:
- Received -> Magus04 and Aniki03 from Freebies
- Traded -> Nii14 and Though01 for Emperor05 and Ramen09 with roxora
11/17/07:
- Received -> Doctor07, Glasses14, and Rooster20 from Card Graveyard
- Received -> Amita13, Tori07, and Fake10 from Guess that Manga (game)
11/18/07:
- Gave -> Glasses14, Magus04, and Resolve05 to haruhara
- Received -> Smart09, Cello18, Man06, and Junk07 from Guess that Seiyuu (game)
- Received -> Prodigy06 and Fox12 from Guess that Character (game)
- Received -> Chess09 and Silver Choice Certificate from pick a Card (game)
- Received -> Pyo14, Genius08, and Bronze Choice Certificate from Laundry Basket (game)
- Received -> Pilot13 and Saturn05 from Happy Birthday! (game)
- Received -> Crash20 from Matching (game)
11/19/07:
- Traded -> Doctor07 for Hachi17 with stopping
- Traded -> Chess09 for Magus12 with kneazlegirl
11/20/07:
- Traded -> Ronin07 for Cat17 with rainmage
- Gave -> Magus12 to haruhara
11/25/07:
- Received -> Bronze Choice Certificate from Pick a Card (game)
- Received -> Onigiri11 from haruhara
- Received -> Mainyu19 from Anime Trivia (game)
11/26/07:
- Received -> Despair03 and Twins07 from Anime Theme Voting
12/02/07:
- Received -> Critic12 and Fight08 from Happy Birthday! (game)
- Received -> Resolve10, Aniki16, and Bronze Choice Certificate from Laundry Basket (game)
12/09/07:
- Received -> Panzer16, Ditz02, and Bronze Choice Certificate from Eye Spy (game)
- Received -> Dragon02, 669-19, Ashes14, and Bronze Choice Certificate from Guess the Character(s) (game)
- Received -> Kappa03, Nymph06, and Lord17 from Pick a Card (game)
- Received -> Saru02, Jurai08, and Boar07 from Guess that Video Game (game)
- Traded -> Cello18 for Horse05 with chrysa
- Traded -> Dragon14 and Moon01 for Doll07 and Space02 with callie_chan
- Traded -> Junk07 for Cat06 with torchmcscorch
- Received -> Common12 and Demon06 from haruhara
- Gave -> Space02 to haruhara
- Gave -> Panzer16 to stopping
- Received -> Bunny09 from stopping
12/10/07:
- Gave -> Ashes14 and Doll07 to aacdeln
- Received -> Bunny14, Cow02, Emperor02, Horse08, Monkey01, Sheep19, Sheep20, Snake09, and Demon13 from aacdeln ♥!
- Traded -> Tattoo19 for Strings19 with callie_chan
12/16/07:
- Received -> Bat16 and Mainyu17 from Eye Spy! (game)
- Received -> Flame14 and Nun15 from Guess that Character (game)
- Received -> Otaku02 and Uranus10 from Guess the Video Game (game)
- Received -> Medea20 and Voice02 from Happy Birthday! (game)
- Received -> Breast12 and Sea10 from Happy Birthday! (game)
- Received -> Vessel02 and Oedipus10 from Anime Trivia (game)
- Traded -> Haro06 and Tori07 for Light02 and Light14 with aquapatty
- Traded -> Stalk10 for Cat13 with c00_quack
12/20/07:
- Traded -> Genius08 and Twins07 for Horse01 and Emperor11 with amano_rei
- Traded -> Strings19 for Emperor18 with stopping
12/20/07:
- Traded -> Flirt20 for Demon14 with c00_quack
- Traded -> Otaku02 and Unlucky06 for Horse16 and Light04 with demyx
12/23/07:
- Traded -> Oha13 for Widl15 with aquapatty
- Received -> Bat13, Stalk12, Acedia19, Lion17, and Silver Choice Certificate from Boobs, Butt, or Shoulder? (game)
12/24/07:
- Traded -> Camera07, Sky12, and Sky15 for Cat05, Cat16, and Nun07 with dia_aren_marie
- Received -> Hell06 and puzzle15 from Guess that Chibi (game)
- Received -> Angra19, Critic05, and Stalk15 from Eye Spy! (game)
- Received -> Nyu02 and Nymph02 from Freebies!

Affirmative!

Good things that happened this week:
-I made varsity soccer team!!
-I got an almost perfect report card!!
-I think I did really good on my Algebra II/Trig. test!!
-I got cleats, shin guards, and soccer socks!!
-I'm not feeling too sick!!
-I'm eating proper meals daily!!
-I'm sleeping better than usual!! That really really bad dream excluded.
-I made my favorite teacher laugh with my art project again!!

There's prolly more, but I'm feeling lazy. :] I hope your week was just as freaking awesome. And if not, there's always next week. And the week after that. ♥

Yesterday was a pretty horrible day. Horrible as in, I walked/ran home crying and then passed out when I got home, horrible. Yes, it was that bad.

But then Alex called me and said "Hey, you're going ice skating later!" Uhh...huh? I was still kinda blaah at the time, so I didn't wanna talk to him about it. But it turned out to be pretty fun.

Ice skating, the cure for emo?

The thing that I've been searching for. It's hope. This is gonna sound horribly emo but my life is honestly drowning me. Everything just sucks. I hate my friends. And I'm losing the ones that I don't hate. I'm losing my family. I'm failing half of my classes in school. Cross country went from being one of the best things about school to the only thing about school that I like. And it's almost over. And I'm going to lose the friends that I made in that too. The only other passion I used to have in school was band, which I now hate with an almost equal passion. I have little to no self esteem most of the time. I'm constantly depressed. I keep crying at random moments because I'm thinking too damn much about everything. I find that half of the time when I'm "happy", I'm really putting up a front because I'm in front of my "friends". People who probably don't give a rat's ass about me. Or maybe they do, but even if they found out, they'd either do nothing to help me or make it worse. That's all they ever seem to do. I'm less and less the person that can help people and more and more the person desperately in need of help. But there's no one there to help me. I can't even help myself. So how is anyone else going to know what's wrong with me? How are they going to fix it? I so desperately want someone to save me but I know that person will never come along.

I've no hope left for anything.

This is my secret. But I have so many more.

You piss me off to no end. Sometimes I really just want to punch you in the face. I love you, I really do, but you're making it harder and harder to convince myself that that is true. I hate everything that you do. I hate everything that you say. I hate everything that you do and say to me. Everytime I talk to you, I walk away pissed a ever, regardless of how good a day I was having beforehand. You can take the happiest moment of my life and ruin it in an instant. I hate you so fucking much. It's getting harder and harder to love you.

I hope you like being this way. I hope you get some form of enjoying from my being miserable. I hope you're getting something from it. Because if you aren't, I hate you even more. Because I fucking hate every waking moment I am near you and if it's all for nothing...

Have a great day. Because I know I won't.

Don'tcha just hate those days when you don't have the energy to do anything? I can't tell if I'm sick right now, exhausted, or just freaking depressed. I'm pretty sure it's a combination of the three.

This shit sucks.

I'm starting to think about those retarded things I shouldn't think about again. Like how many people I know actually know me. How many of them are actually my friends? How many of them can I rely on? How many of them would be there for me if I needed them? How many of them would be able to spend two days with me without getting pissy and leaving? How many of them will actually make an attempt to remain friends with me if we went separate ways?

How many of them would care if I just disappeared one day? What if I died? How many of them would even care? Would they even notice? Or would they just think I went on vacation for a really really really really really ridiculously good looking long time?

How many friends do I really have? I mean, I'm sure I have a lot of people that would consider themselves my friends, but how many of them are actually friends?

I'm glad I don't really have any friends on LiveJournal. Cuz no one can read this and tell me how right or wrong I might be.

Today has been really depressing. I need sleep.

Note to self: Do not wash bras and underwear with red skirts. Fuck.

I'm so...tired.